" Here I am , crying my hear t out tonight, & Gosh not only do i miss you, i still love you and my heartaches so badly, why did it has to happen? why did this day just have to come..through all that i've been through , all that WE;ve been through, Im at the least ready to let it go, why did it has to happen? you taugh me how to love, but why didnt you teach me how to let it go? "